Using my Gifts to bring Glory to the Lord

For 32 yrs. I have been using certain spiritual 'gifts' -- (1) Celibacy (2) Speaking/Singing in Tongues (3) A Word of Wisdom from the Lord to my generation.

These 'gifts' turned out to be very useful in drawing closer to the Lord, and in my adoration of Him. I consider these 'gifts' essential for my worship and spiritual understanding. From my point of view, I feel blessed to have been chosen to share in the depth of my heart the sweetness and humility of our great Saviour Jesus. He is 'personal' to me--but I have found that Church members do not share this same depth of bonding to Christ. But then neither do I share their need to perform in some 11 am service they are offering to God. To me, it is my heart, my emotional strings, that is being offered, not just one hr. one day a week. My whole existence is involved in a personal relationship -- I am not a 'churchgoer' concerned with putting flowers on altars and coins in a collection plate, to be seen as 'doing my bit for God' on some holy day of the week.

Therefore, I am 'attacked' by all churchgoers as being 'unfruitful', even a 'bastard child' of the Lord because I am not 'conforming' to their religious obligations to Jesus. Church-going Christians are not desirous of my devotion to the Lord for themselves -- I am commanded to 'fit the mold' they have for themselves. I am asked, "What Century are you living in--cause you sure aren't living like everybody else today." I consider my 'service' to the Lord is to live a holy life of devotion to Him--as He has given me, and not be bullied or threatened to conform to any Church path -- making myself totally irrelevant to this generation of Churchgoers. My voice has been completely drowned out, and my testimony useless to this present age for 32 years. I am 64 now, and no longer make myself a prey--bit I am writing this today--to again testify against this crooked path my generation has taken and to continue to speak out against it seeing their 'end' of the road is nigh!

I accept my commission in this 'fight' against sin--and the Lord has equipped me with armor to fight in a spiritual battle with a Christian culture committing adultery with the World, while claiming to be married to Christ Jesus. The Christian Church wants to 'have it both ways'--one foot in the world and one foot in some weak and worthless religious service--an entire nation caught up in satisfying their fleshly desires for passing pleasures of the good life in the flesh. We see Americans now trillions of dollars in debt--as a result of coveting and avarice. Reaping what they have sown!